Bluemoon Diary

Almost after two months i am going to have a super relaxing weekend....No major plans just comfy and easy break...happy happy!!!!!!!!

After long time I am here today. Ramadan passed with all its holy spirit . Two days before Eid I shifted to a new place. For me it was so exhausting not only physically but psychologically too. I could not understand my feelings exactly …I was glad and content in one moment of time ….and down a very low kind of a feeling in another moment. Neither wholly happy nor sad….its difficult to explain. Eid days were very busy…I was juggling with settlement and adjustment issues and also had to have Eid celebrations..thanks to Allah all went good and no major hitch occurred but lot of itsy bitsy hickups keep on bothering. Just after Eid I have to go out of station for some days…came back last week and got busy in household activities as everything need attention. In all this time I could not spare time to write but after this break and a little bit settled situation I am here. Still a lot of matters are there to be solved and a lot of work have to be done but with time everything will get set...

I am shattered and fatigued…feeling exhausted…Reasons are there but do not know how to deal with them…At times things are beyond your control…but are actually agonizing for you….what can you do when there is no one who can help you out….nobody can even hold you up to sustain and nothing is there with you who can change the bad episode of your life.. just one thing that you can do for you is ‘’DUA’’. May Allah give me strength and potency to keep me balanced in this period,,,help me to put up with this rough phase and come out of it courageously……aameen

Change is life…… In life everything has to be changed.A child holding his father’s hand under his own steam on road,grows up and turn upto a youthful guy reached to his shoulder length walking with him side by side,always enduring  this change process all the way through his life.Babyhood has to end up to a new stage and then another and a further coming and fleeting one after other…and scenes of life just keep on gently sloping  just like if someone is sitting in train and watching different sights passing outside the window.Seasons,days,years,events,everything changes…. moments change, faces change, lives change..anything you name it has to be changed or replaced by the other.Its innate , its normal… What should I do if I am change resistant????? I exceedingly dislike change whether its seasonal or behavioural. sometimes I do not even like the time moving on; that’s something we say momentary change.For The similar reason relocation means a real headache and frustra...

Being a girl,i had to leave behind all my dearest relations.. moved to a new family and adapt changes,,changes that are physical ...changes associated to mind and emotions.I made new relations...well i can say a whole new world of mine...but when i look back and started to grabble my past i found beautiful and lovable relations.. One of them is my sister... my firend ...my best friend ever and forever....she is younger than me..we studied in same schools,she was like a little bird whom i always kept by my side like a mummy bird.Being elder one i always had to look upon her especially in school hours whether she need anything or not....As the time goes on i became a different person having an inbuilt characteristics of a mother...caring and cautious...all credit goes to her...she was the baby i have to take care of ....she was so much attached to me that she ate same quantity of food as that i was........at that time i never felt beauty of this act but right now when i am thinkin...

Its been raining for 3 hours here and i am totally enjoying it.Love the cold beautiful silent breezy feeling.This RIM JHIM makes me remind about my college days when we all friends bunk our classes and walk in rain.i still remember my wet shoes full of rain water and my stole,i was trying to make that dry...small but lively moments of life.i am remembering my family picnic when we reached at the spot,rain started and we ran here and there to find some place to stand safe in rain.but we could not....after the rain stopped we all were trying to dry our wet clothes and laughing on each other's way of doing so....finally we started our picnic plan and enjoyed a a lot...and while coming back home i experienced a splash of water on me due to a biker passing by us.....it was embarrassing at that moment but later on  I, my sisters and our cousin we all were having so much fun by remembering that moment.Memories are still here and there around me,so many incidents of my life that this RAIN...

A beautiful morning rise and a new sun came to say me HI....I was sitting at my window side today morning and watching the scenic beauty of smooth and fresh sun coming out.while enjoying this scene some thoughts came into mind i just started here to share them. Night ended and a new day came,everything has to passed away and away whatever it was or whatever it will be.whether it is the happy moments of life or some annoying ones,they have to pass.Then why not try to let every tough and bad happening go.Dark nights came into lives but every time they came and they passed.So let the dark matters behind and move on to start a new beginning.But then i thought sometimes somethings can not be.some events of life affect you so much in some matters that you can not just let them go.Its not you but in fact they wont let you move forward......so the question is ....Is it so easy to let the things go,,,to forget,,,,to forgive.... sometimes surely not........ then i start to convin...

I started writing diary when i was 15,it is an amazing experience.I write on everything that i was experiencing,anything that happening around me or whatever i was feeling.Whenever i feel there is a noise inside me i just sit alone and start writing.i write to make myself feel better and nothing else.but when i start blogging i feel its much better tool as i can share all my thoughts and feelings with some amazing people,and i'll have a chance to learn a lot by sharing others experiences about their lives.Blogging can help us to make some nice relationships,relationship between writer and reader of a blog.So my lonely talks are being replaced by my shared thoughts,and hope i will enjoy my journey and eventually good and valuable relationship with my readers. see u soon till then take care

A slow and sleepy weekend ended and a new Monday came...how was your Monday.....? Mine was pretty well.Me and my daughter both of us were in an energetic mood. Sometimes i think you do not need too much to become lively and happy what you need is only a hand to hold you in all your life,an ear that listens you, a heart who understands you more than anyone else.A companion who walk with you and share your life is a blessing.how many of us have this blessing in life!!!!! My relations make my life live-able and worthy and give me all the strength to face this world. Life can be bitter sometimes but make it sweet with the sweetness of your relations.Invest in them,trust me u will never regret of it.Happy week ahead.Take care of you and your loved ones.....see you next time

Life is not simple at all. It is multidimensional. Its not necessary that everyone of us has everything in life. But everyone can try to live with satisfaction .Satisfy with all u have,bear your tough times with hope and courage  .Nothing is perfect and nobody can be perfect, so do not try hard to make you perfect. Come on its life and you have so many ups and downs with it. So prepare yourself for this ride and live with it lively and positive attitude. Just live with solutions not problems. Do not stuck in so many Ifs and Buts,just be free and let it go on its own pace.Love yourself and take best care of  you and your loved ones until next time.