She Is My Sister......

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Being a girl,i had to leave behind all my dearest relations.. moved to a new family and adapt changes,,changes that are physical ...changes associated to mind and emotions.I made new relations...well i can say a whole new world of mine...but when i look back and started to grabble my past i found beautiful and lovable relations..
One of them is my sister... my firend ...my best friend ever and forever....she is younger than me..we studied in same schools,she was like a little bird whom i always kept by my side like a mummy bird.Being elder one i always had to look upon her especially in school hours whether she need anything or not....As the time goes on i became a different person having an inbuilt characteristics of a mother...caring and cautious...all credit goes to her...she was the baby i have to take care of ....she was so much attached to me that she ate same quantity of food as that i was........at that time i never felt beauty of this act but right now when i am thinking of her...this feeling fills me with immense delight that how much she loved me ..she always dressed up like me...our school fellows commented on us that she is exactly my duplicate...she looked so innocent and beautiful whe she wear scarf in my style...her friends knew about me so much as she always keep on talking about me...i am not a great person but she idealized me.....
I remember the times when she asked me to pick her up so that she can reach at the mirror level that is hanging too high on wall...and i myself was hardly been able to reach there...but i pulled her up and made her to do so....her excitement filled me with unlimited joy.when i was in high school once she fainted in school and her best friend came to me....and said....'' api she is unconcious hurry up see what happened to her''. i ran to her class and saw her lying down....she got treated by doctor in school but she could not recover.Then my elder cousin came to pick her on my call.I was so confused and worried...She got an attack due to insufficient sleep....that day i did not want to stay at school anymore...as soon she left for home i was feeling uneasy to stay back there....Now this thought came to my mind that most probably she was the only happy reason for me to go to school.....if i did not have her with me at school,, to attend the school would be terrible for me....she was the one who drove me to stay 8.00AM to 2.00PM in school....we both lived every moment of our lives together concurrently.....without each other we were incomplete.Going to school together ,,,came back....doing everything with each other.....it was not like that we could not live without each other but we never lived without each other..................till i became a wife
          
When i got married the most agonized feeling was to leave her...none of us have had any kind of idea that we would be apart so early..we were not expecting that......i could not explain in words how harrowingly i left her behind...she was weeping and weeping on my rukhsati moment...i do not really know how was she able to bear that apartness.....i was just twenty and she was eighteen at that time...young enough to handle our mental and emotional states..

Now after years of my marriage....when i am a much mature person the baby sister that i left behind is a sober and grown up girl....when i see her i feel the little girl doing innocent actions....talking just about funny and childish things now turned upto a reasonable and sophisticated girl talking about facts and realities of life.i love her theway how she was....and still now i appreciate what she is.....Despite of our physical parting...she is with me all the time.there is no single matter that i did not share with her....she is the only one who knows about my dark moments of life....she is still my only friend.....trustful and reliable...Do not know these words can do justice in explaining my heartstrings..my relation with her or not but i do not have any other way......
She was part of my persona,,,she is and she will always be...
She does not know about herself much but i know her.....she is a fabulous human being and an innocent girl....with a beautiful and pure heart.......
                may Allah bless her with every happiness and save her from hot waters always...Ameen

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